Loss

I have a friend who's battling ovarian cancer. She is the sweetest, kindest, most enigmatic, bewitching person I know. I met her in college and we have been friends ever since.

Unfortunately, she lives in the D.C. area and it's hard for me to visit her. Last time we saw each other was in August, and we both cried when we parted because hey, when you're battling ovarian cancer, you never can tell when the last time really is the last time.

Now, she's in the hospital, again. She's been in the hospital for most of 2008. It's hard for her to communicate and I no longer have her current address because she's moved in with family to recover (when she isn't in the hospital). I have her phone number but she has tubes in her throat and can't talk.

I'm scared she'll die before we get to see each other again.

I know she's got other things to worry about right now and I hope she is concentrating all her energy on healing and getting better. The world cannot stand to lose her. It will truly be a loss for humanity.

But, I hope the powers that be whisper in her ear when all is quiet this message:

"I love you. I've always loved you. God be with you and take your pain. May your bright, shining spirit be a guide for us all. Don't give up."

God be with you, Kaihea. May God take away your pain. May God heal your body so that your spirit can shine through and inspire us all.

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I've also lost another friendship I've had since college. If you are reading this, you know who you are. I'm so sorry, and I hope when the dust settles you will call me again. I never meant for it to end like this. I wish you all the best.

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Finally, I'm voluntarily closing the door on yet another chapter of another friendship. People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. To this person (who will probably never read this anyway), I say: "Thank you for our beautiful season. I wish you happiness and joy in your new season and lifetime."

All we can remember is that everything happens for a reason. God places us where he needs and wants us to be at any given moment. When things happen and you don't know the reason, remember, you may never know the reason, but God does. All we can do is try to learn the lesson he has set for us.

May God give me the strength to learn my lessons.

Peace to all.